should i?

Maybe it is time to let you go and move on.

And maybe it is also time to admit to myself the fact that I can no longer deny.

That we are a loose end and we always will be.

It's like I'm left with a book with no last chapter, filling my head with questions I can never answer and wondering if all those time I spent on it was actually worth something.

I always knew that we were destined to fall apart, and that the love that seemed to run so deep was merely a thin surface designed to cover the true intentions underneath.

But no matter how bad things got, I never thought that it would end this way; no matter how frustrating, confusing, and complicated things got.

I thought that we would at least have an ending, a moment of closure where we say the things needed to be said.

But we never had that, did we?

And what kills me the most is that I never knew that the last time I saw you would be the last, I never knew that all the words I saved up in my head for when we say our goodbyes will forever be left unspoken, and I never knew that even after all the shit that went down between us I still wouldn't be able to get you out of my mind.

But maybe that's because you left so quickly, when all I wanted was just the chance to say goodbye.

—J. c.